wo hai xiang ta.

wah.... the number of post have increase so much since the last tym i open this blog..
not bad Kayers!!

hurm.. its already a month plus since the new semester start..
i cant believe that i'm the senior year now.. how tym flies.
and on top of all... i dont tink that i'm ready to step into the occupation world now.. even every sem pun dah masuk hospital..
its not that i hate this job.. totally love it..but when there are people who relies on u everytime, it started to feel like u r carrying such heavy responsibility, and as u deal with people's life, the burden feel 100 time heavier.

2009, i dont know if this is a good year for me,
but fate seem like playing with me along this time,
went back here from the sem break last sunday,
it was 5 by the time i reach PJ and got this call from my dad, " ur uncle was admit to the Cardiac Care Unit (CCU) last night"..
and later, there's another call," u dont have to rush back anymore, he's gone already"
fate really is playing a game with me.. last year, i receive the same call,about my grandad. tym 2 pun baru je sampai balik cni..and i got my final exam tat tym..
i wonder, y must this happens to me everytime.. I never got to see the face of my love ones the time they say their final goodbye.
i was always away..
why would i become a health practitioner if i cant treat my own family..
i havent gotten over my grandad's death..and now have to accept another missing..
and i cant't forgive myself for the thing i should have do with them when they are alive.. but it's too late to regret now.
so.. again, i guess, we never miss the water until its gone..
if you love someone( family, bf, frens), tell them that you love them, share ur happiness with them, dont wait, thinking that u'll have many time to spend with them.. cherish every moment that u have now..
for when its gone.. nothing that u do can bring back the time.
and .. sorry for this not-so-happy post..